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I hate my 2nd job. I really do. It's basically the same as my 1st job, except with a very dysfunctional family with attention deprived twin 9 year olds, an autistic 14 year old boy who hates me, a mother who is trying to hold it together, and a father who walks around in his tighty whitey black briefs every shift. Not to mention, both parents are home the entire time I'm there. Even the dog is crazy. The 9 year olds are so desperate for attention that I can't even go pee without them saying "Aja!!!!! where are you??" I have tried to reason with myself saying "this job isn't that bad, I mean, I don't have to deal with shitty customers and the money is pretty ok". However, the more I am there the more I convince myself that I never want to have kids, and that's sort of a sad thought. I get really sad being there. It's such an unhealthy environment to spend my time in. I'm not exactly in the best head space anyways, and that house makes me want to cry and just point out to them how nuts they are and how I'm never coming back. I only work 2 days a week there, but that's enough to give me such anxiety that I can't sleep at night.
I've convinced myself I'm going to quit , but sometimes doing something I feel is the right decision is hard for me. Also, the mom just busted her knee and is pretty much bed ridden for the next 3 months, which makes my duties extra. So, I feel bad saying I want to quit, but I JUST can't take it anymore.
Ok. I know this is boring, but it feels good to write about it and get it out.

I was in the grocery store the other day shopping for family #1, and when I turned around from grabbing a carton of eggs autistic boy was there with dad from family #2 and staring at me. I said Hi and he instantly huffed and puffed and turned around. I thought "go fuck yourself" even though I know he's autistic....he's not retarded. He's kind of mean. Anyways, It just creeped me out because every where I went I would look up and find him staring at me. Yeah. Peace out family #2. I'm out.